Life Interruptions
Yep… I’ve done it again. Just like so many of us do.
I have let life override my self-care, my health goals, my 365 Days of Me Journey.
YES, the shop is a big part of it… but it isn’t the whole picture.
The bigger issue is that it has become the ONLY thing I’m focused on right now, and THAT is exactly what I’m trying to rewire in my life.
I get so hyperfocused on a mission that I put my head down and just GO GO GO until it’s complete.
Meanwhile, I’m depleting myself.
Running myself into the ground.
Feeling drained, overwhelmed, exhausted.
And the crazy part is… I’m so close to being done, but I’m still days and days away.
My blood sugar is back in the mid to high 200s again, and now I’m dealing with vertigo on top of it. Is the vertigo from blood sugar? I don’t think so, but I’m sure it contributes. I’m pretty sure it’s from the nasty ear infection I’ve been fighting. UGH.
BUT… there is progress too.
I have improved my sleep quality, and that has made a MAJOR difference in how I feel overall.
I’m not consistently going to bed at 9 and getting up at 5 yet, but I AM getting close to 8 hours of sleep almost every night, and I feel so much better because of it.
And honestly? I’m excited about the shop. I don’t even look at it as “work.” It is absolutely good for my soul.
I just need to stop acting like my physical health is separate from the dream.
Because it’s not.
There is no reason I can’t throw a roast in the crockpot in the morning or make extra when cooking daycare lunch. I do NOT have to eat takeout and frozen pizza every night because I’m depleted.
And the way I acted on this last Omaha run… you would’ve thought I didn’t even have diabetes.
SO.
MUCH.
SUGAR.
UGH.
I’m honestly glad I woke up early enough to sit here this morning and brain dump all of this out, because it’s helping me step back and look at the bigger picture again.
And if I’m being really honest… I have this nagging feeling that I NEED to get back to focusing on my health before something major happens. A heart attack. A stroke. Something that forces me to slow down.
Little warnings.
I saw a TikTok recently where a man explained how cardiac disease is what kills most diabetics. He used the example of making caramel with heat and sugar, then compared it to what happens inside the body when blood sugar stays too high for too long.
That visual stuck with me HARD.
The idea of my blood becoming thick and sticky inside my vessels painted a picture in my head I can’t stop thinking about.
And honestly?
It scared me.
I think it’s time to stop looking at my lifestyle with one eye closed.
It’s time to look at the whole picture.
Mind.
Body.
Soul.
And remember that this journey is supposed to include ME too.
Advice to anyone else who needs this reminder today:
You do not have to abandon your dreams to take care of yourself. You just have to stop treating your health like it can wait until everything else is finished. Because there will ALWAYS be another project, another goal, another task.
There is only one you.
Journaling Prompts:
Where in my life am I running on survival mode while calling it “productivity”?
What small daily choices would make my physical health feel supported instead of neglected?
What warning signs have I been minimizing because I’m too focused on the mission?
If this sounds like the kind of work you’re ready to step into, you can join us in 365 Days of Me:
