Healing in Phase 2

This isn’t my first journey through 365 Days of Me.

Years ago, it pulled me out of rock bottom emotionally. So when I found myself at rock bottom with my health, I thought… why not try again? What would happen if I reframed my life and intentionally invested in ME for the next 365 days?

And I can honestly say — it’s working.

I hope this blog doesn’t come across like a sales pitch or a “this will save your life” advertisement. But the truth is, I’m so excited about the changes happening in my own life that I almost don’t care if it does. Because I want everyone to feel what I’m feeling right now.

You are worthy of investing in yourself.
And I will keep saying that until you believe it too.

This isn’t my first 365 Days of Me journey, so I did have a bit of a head start. But this time, something is different. Opening this door for other people — watching this community grow, seeing members interact, hearing that people finally have a place where they don’t feel alone — has elevated me in a way I didn’t expect.

It holds me accountable to the promises I made, not just to myself, but to all of you. And that accountability fuels me to keep moving toward my own goals.

I also want to say this clearly:
Please don’t feel like you’re behind just because things are moving quickly for me.

Every single person’s journey looks different.

My first time through this program was hard. Really hard. I was learning how to love myself again. I didn’t have a community. I only had determination and the decision that for 365 days I was going to focus on myself — fully, intentionally.

It worked so well that I came back to it… and this time I invited you with me.

My hope is that this program gives you what you need to see your worth, to recognize that you matter, and to find the strength to say no to whatever stands in your way — people, expectations, jobs, grief, guilt, or old patterns.

I’ve actually been hesitant to share my health progress. My numbers scared me, and honestly I carried shame for letting things get so out of control. But I am building this program while living it, and the results are blowing my mind.

So today, I’m choosing to share it openly.

Last night I went to bed with my blood sugar at 152.

If you’ve been following my journey, you know how big that is. When I started in January my blood sugar consistently sat in the mid-to-high 300s — very dangerous levels. My fasting numbers were over 300.

This morning my fasting blood sugar was 198.

My body is healing.

I am investing in myself… and my body is responding.

And the icing on the cake — I weighed in this morning and I am down 5 pounds. One more pound and I will be under 350 lbs for the first time since I quit smoking six years ago.

I am happy, yes.

But more than that, I am proud of myself.

It feels strange to be proud of simply caring for myself — but that also shows me just how disconnected I had become.

I’m not sharing this because I have it all figured out.

I’m sharing this because change actually is possible. Not overnight. Not perfectly. But one intentional decision at a time.

And if I can start climbing out, you can too.

✧ Journal With Me ✧

Take a few minutes today and sit with yourself honestly. There are no right answers here — just awareness.

1. Where in my life do I currently feel stuck or trapped?
(Health, emotions, relationships, work, habits, thoughts, expectations — nothing is too small.)

2. What part of that situation is actually outside my control… and what part might still be within my choice?

3. What is one small decision I’ve been avoiding because it feels uncomfortable, scary, or inconvenient?

4. If I stopped waiting to feel ready, what is one tiny action I could take today to move 1% forward?

5. Do I believe I am worthy of investing time, energy, or care into myself?
If the answer is no, gently ask yourself why.

6. What does “freedom” actually look like in my life?
Not a fantasy — a real, everyday version. How would my mornings feel? My body? My thoughts?

7. What is one promise I can make to myself for the next 24 hours?
Keep it small. Keep it realistic. Keep it kind.

Closing Reflection

“There is freedom hiding inside choice.”

Today, instead of trying to fix your whole life, just make one intentional choice that supports the person you are becoming.

Write it down.
Then honor it.

You are not behind.
You are beginning.