Finding Excitement
It is not very often that I don't have much to say, but this morning I find myself searching for something to write about.
I made it to bed by 9:00 PM and had the lights out about 20 minutes later. When my body woke up at 5:00 AM, though, I was warm, comfortable, and immediately said, "Nope!" LOL.
I rolled over and slept another hour.
I got up, made my coffee, got dressed, partially unloaded the dishwasher, and now here I am, 20 minutes before the kids arrive, feeling rushed to get this blog written.
The funny thing is that I think the reason I'm struggling to find something to write about this morning is because my mind is finally getting quiet.
For months, my head has been filled with moving projects, organizing projects, building projects, shop projects, website projects, inventory projects, and all the stress that came along with them.
There was always something demanding my attention.
Always something that needed fixed.
Always something that felt urgent.
This morning, there isn't.
And honestly, that feels a little strange.
My sleep has improved so much over the last couple of weeks, and I am seeing that reflected in my day-to-day mood and attitude.
I am not nearly as bitchy or irritated as I was when I wasn't sleeping well.
Go figure.
I have also been making a conscious effort to stay busy during my daycare nap-time break and after work.
During the final stretch of the shop overhaul, it became a habit to sit down and veg whenever I had a spare moment.
At the time, I needed it.
I was exhausted.
But it's amazing how quickly a habit can take hold when you aren't paying attention.
One day you're resting because you need to.
The next thing you know, you've trained yourself to sit down every chance you get.
Yesterday I spent my free time working on books and packaging the new line of Little Lotus Kids pens.
Oh my goodness, they are adorable.
I cannot wait to share them on Facebook.
I have so many ideas for the Little Lotus Kids line, and I was talking about some of them with the daycare kids yesterday.
Their excitement was contagious.
The Gello Soap continues to be a huge hit, which tells me it is definitely a keeper.
Watching their reactions reminds me that creating things can be fun.
Not productive.
Not necessary.
Not urgent.
Just fun.
And maybe that's what I'm feeling this morning.
For the first time in a long time, my mind isn't consumed by what has to be done.
Instead, it's wandering toward what could be created next.
That's a much nicer place to be.
Sometimes peace doesn't arrive with fireworks.
Sometimes it shows up as a quiet morning when you sit down to write and realize there isn't a crisis waiting for your attention.
Just coffee.
A little extra time.
And the freedom to dream about what comes next.
If there is one thing I am learning lately, it is that we need to pay attention when life gets quieter.
For so long, I was focused on simply getting through the day and managing the next thing that needed my attention. I forgot what it felt like to have space to think, create, and dream.
When life finally settles down, don't rush to fill every empty space with another obligation.
Sit with it for a while.
Listen to it.
You might discover that underneath all the stress and responsibility is a version of yourself that has been patiently waiting for room to breathe again.
Sometimes the greatest sign of healing isn't motivation.
It's peace.
And sometimes the next chapter begins when your mind finally becomes quiet enough to hear yourself again.
Journal Prompts
What has consumed most of my mental energy over the past year, and how has that affected the way I care for myself?
When was the last time I felt genuinely excited about creating, learning, or trying something new?
If I had more mental space available right now, what would I want to spend that energy on?
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