OVERLOADED

Just gonna keep it real…

I screwed up.

UGH. I am so frustrated with myself.

I’ve been pouring myself into everything else — the group, the growth, the goals — and completely ignoring the mundane responsibility of TAXES.

And not just one year.

Two.

When Dick died in February last year, everything shifted overnight. I had to move the daycare. I had to move the shop. It took until June to physically move everything, and the rest of the year to get it set up and functioning again. Taxes got extended… and then avoided.

Now it’s March 3rd.

I have 12 days to finish 2024 and 2025 and get them to my accountant. I can’t ask for another extension.

And I am stressed.

I’m waking up hot, irritated, and pissed off because this is disrupting the rhythm I’ve worked so hard to build. It feels like it’s semi-derailing my progress.

Yesterday I didn’t eat terribly, but I wasn’t mindful either. Anxiety stole two hours of my sleep. I woke up already on edge, knowing the grind continues today.

Here’s the hard truth:

I created this situation.

Not intentionally.
Not maliciously.
But through avoidance.

And now I’m living inside the consequences of my choices.

I tell my kids all the time: every choice has consequences. Some small. Some long-lasting.

Well… this is one of mine.

And instead of spiraling, I’m owning it.

Phase 3 isn’t cute. It’s not aesthetic. It’s not perfectly curated growth content.

Sometimes Phase 3 looks like sitting down with the paperwork you didn’t want to face.

Right now, I can’t put myself first in the way I’d prefer to. I have to put these taxes first so I don’t create a bigger problem down the road.

And yes — this affects my health.
Mind, Body & Soul.

Stress impacts my blood sugar.
It impacts my sleep.
It impacts my mood.

So I’m making a decision.

At the end of every month, from here on out, book work gets done. No excuses. No stacking it for “later.” I am not living like this again.

It’s time to make better choices so I can have better consequences.

That’s ownership.
That’s growth.
That’s Phase 3.

If you’re sitting in consequences of your own avoidance right now, you’re not alone. The goal isn’t perfection. The goal is ownership — and then action.

We fix it.
We learn.
We build better systems.
And we keep moving.

Journaling Prompts:

1. What responsibility have I been avoiding — and why?

2. What story am I telling myself about this situation that isn’t helping me move forward?

3. What small system can I put in place today to prevent this same stress in the future?