Making Myself Show Up
I didn’t want to post today.
My to-do list is already nagging at me, and all I really want to do is dive into it and start knocking things off.
But honestly… these are the moments when I probably need to write the most.
When life starts feeling heavy and overwhelming, taking a few minutes to slow down and just do a brain dump is one of the best tools I have for my mental health. If I skip it, the noise in my head just keeps getting louder.
I woke up this morning already buzzing.
Taxes.
Food program paperwork.
Clean up the house.
Dishes.
Laundry.
Get a candle burning so I can record a video and upload it to the group.
Oh wait… I should probably do this first.
No, that first.
And just like that, all the kids are here and I’ve got about fifteen minutes left before the TV goes off, the lights come on, and daycare officially begins for the day.
But I made this commitment — to myself and to all of you.
So… I’m here.
I’m rushing a little today, but I’m still showing up.
If I’m being honest, this may be a recurring theme for a bit. My nervous system is definitely feeling the weight of these taxes hanging over me.
So the plan is simple: focus and get it done.
No grandkids this weekend.
No Omaha trip for groceries.
No working on Phase 3 of the program.
None of that happens until these taxes are handed over to my accountant.
I’m going to bust my ass and get it finished by the end of the weekend, because I’m tired of it sitting in the back of my mind and stealing my focus.
And if I’m really being honest with myself, this is also a good reminder of something I already know but tend to ignore: putting off a year’s worth of bookkeeping creates a level of stress that just isn’t necessary.
An hour or two at the end of each month could save me from all of this pressure every year.
That’s a commitment I clearly need to make moving forward.
For now, the focus is simple: get it done, clear the weight off my shoulders, and move forward.
Sometimes progress isn’t about adding more to your plate.
Sometimes it’s about finally finishing the thing that’s been sitting there far too long.
And today… that’s exactly what I’m doing.
Journaling Prompts
What task or responsibility have I been putting off that continues to weigh on my mind?
How does avoiding that task affect my stress levels and daily focus?
What small habit could I build that would prevent this kind of overwhelm in the future?
