Finally!!

Things are starting to shift in the direction I was hoping for.

I bought a new mattress and pillows. I added L-theanine and glycine to my magnesium glycinate bedtime routine. I started leaving my phone in the living room and shutting off the WiFi at night. I downloaded my meditations from YouTube onto my tablet and now use that for my nighttime routine and alarm.

And it’s working.

Last night after work, I got a deep tissue massage to help release the tension in my lower back from poor sleep habits. It was also my first night with the added supplements.

I slept great.

Today, my body is achy and sore, and I’m still fatigued—but I know one good night of sleep isn’t going to fix everything overnight. I’m just so happy to finally see things moving in the right direction. Honestly, I could cry.

I’m not going to lie—I’ve been hard on myself.

My eating habits were slipping, my blood sugar was climbing, and I felt like I wasn’t working my program. I felt like I was failing.

But then I realized… I wasn’t failing. I was figuring it out.

I knew my lack of sleep was behind the backslide, and I’ve been doing everything I can to fix it.

I didn’t quit.
I didn’t give up.
I didn’t fail.

I adjusted.

And yeah—it felt like failure. I carried a lot of shame with that.

But the truth is, I kept going even when life was kicking me in the teeth. I stayed in it long enough to figure out what needed to change.

I am determined to manage my diabetes with diet and movement—but I’m realizing now that sleep is the foundation that makes any of that possible.

Moving forward, sleep is a priority.

This brings me to Phase 4.

I had started working on it, but I had to put it on the back burner while I figured out what was going on with me. Now that I’m coming out the other side, I have a really solid direction for what Phase 4 will focus on.

Today, I woke up feeling better—but by noon, I was wiped out.

Completely drained. Achy from the massage. Just tired.

I wanted to lay down with the kids.

And honestly, I probably needed to.

Talking it out helped me realize what my body is actually going through right now. It’s not random. It’s recovery. You don’t undo weeks of poor sleep in one night.

I need to give myself some grace.

And then I checked my blood sugar.

170

I haven’t been under 200 in weeks.

That alone was worth celebrating.

I’m still here.
I’m still showing up for myself.
I’m still committed to 365 Days of Me.

It just felt like I was losing while I was adjusting.

If you’re struggling to get to the next phase, don’t quit.

Adjust.

Brainstorm. Talk it out. Get support. Do whatever you need to do to stay invested in your life.

Just don’t give up on yourself.

You’re not failing.
You’re in the middle of figuring it out.

And that’s exactly what this journey is.

Journaling Prompts

• Where in my life do I feel like I’m failing… and what if I’m actually just in the process of figuring it out?

• What is my body trying to tell me right now that I’ve been ignoring or pushing through?

• What is one adjustment I can make today that supports the life I’m trying to build?